Infertility & Puppies

How ironic is life?  Here we have struggled for 6 years to get pregnant and carry to term with nothing but a string of 19 losses to show for it.  Just as I lose the last one, my dog gets pregnant.  REALLY??  Why is it that dogs never have fertility issues??  You never see that.  It's all so implicitly simple for them.  Makes you wonder what it is that keeps them fertile while we struggle.  So, now I have to watch my dog go through a pregnancy that will probably require her going through a c-section (she is tiny and the sire is HUGE...this was NOT planned).  Don't get me wrong, everyone loves puppies, but it's just more salt in the wound for me.  BLAH!  Thanks, life, for rubbing it in.

Peach

Why Can't I Let It Go?

After so many losses, you would think that I could just let go of my desire to have a baby. Even after promising myself I am done, I still dream about having another baby, dream about getting positive pregnancy tests, and still have the desire to try to get pregnant. Why can't I get it through my thick head that it's never going to happen without help? I decided that I would focus on getting everything in the right ranges, chart for a while longer and then look into IUI or IVF, or even surrogacy. I have a while before we can do anything like that, though. It will take a while to raise the money to be able to afford that. So, I will keep blogging about what I am doing to get healthy and to balance hormones, vitamins, and to regulate my cycle. Who knows, maybe it will help someone else get their rainbow or their long awaited baby. Good luck to all of you trying to conceive, no matter your circumstances!!

Live, Laugh, Love,

Peach

Hopes & Dreams Dashed Again

As per usual with me, we have miscarried again. I'm done. I can't do this any more. There comes a time when you realize you are broken and can't be fixed. I guess I am there. Good luck to those of you still trying. May you soon hold your precious babes in your arms.

Peach

A Little Celebrating...

Well, I got results back yesterday on my blood draw. My Progesterone was 18.4 (WOOT!!!) and my HCG was 4097!!!! I am literally OVER THE MOON!! I think this may REALLY be our sticky baby!! I'm not going all out celebrating just yet, though. We've had a healthy pregnancy before and still miscarried, so I'm still waiting, but the news did make me happy!! Please keep praying for us as we go through this journey. Pray that whatever happens, I have the strength to get through it! EDD: October 1, 2013!! WOOT!

5w4d!

Live, Laugh, Love,

Peach